Alright love.

With many girls i'll smile, it's true
but I'll only shine for you.

I'll laugh and enjoy the things I do
but I'll only shine for you.

I'll take some things to get me through
but I'll only shine for you.

You've no idea what i'm going through
because I only shine for you.

She sent me to space, It's a beautiful place...

Ghosts in pictures

Every time I look at your picture
it reminds me of the good times we had
longing for them to return and last forever
would be in vain and would drive me mad.

But sometimes I wonder and let myself float,
Think of our embrace with a lump in my throat
Half pleased that it happened, yet sad that it's gone
like many good things destined not to go on.

That's life i guess, even though it's not fair
But we had so much, tender touch to despair
Life must go on, no matter how tough
no matter what we did, it was never enough.

My God you look good in the picture i have
My word you look lovely, and so i feel sad
but with it comes a feeling, carved deep in my heart
I'll always love you, long as we're apart.

apathy

I could cry in to my beer
but i don't see the point.
I could sit and linger here
but i don't see the point.

I could have a good idea
but wouldn't try for fear
of failing, falling, and not gettin' up
never trust myself and never trust my luck.

Rant about rap these days

Give it up, Just give it up..



Does a bear shit in the woods?
Yes, but I’m sure it’d use the toilet if it could.
Does money grow on trees?
Yes, it does in a way but not exactly.

Is there any point to this dribble?
No, not really, instead of doing work I scribble
Endless crap, meaningless pap, But in my defence, although it’s quite dense.
It still beats the hell out of fiddy cent.

“Just give me a club,
I’ll rearrange his mug
If you think he’s over rated
Come give me a hug, come give me a hug”.

Don’t even get me started about Nelly
How’d that twat get a record deal, let alone on the telly?
What happened to hardcore, before this soft generic shit
R and B my arse, I don’t want none of it.

Same old beats all of the time
Wow, he’s using words that rhyme
Sort tosser thinks that that spittin’
But we all know he’s bull shitin’

Endless shit spews from his mouth
Of no interest to man or mouse
Same old songs about cars and girls
Is that all they have to give the world.

Special K,

hello, it's 4 am and i am drunk-ish and quite spaced. Smoking a j and currently listening to arctic monkeys "still take you home".
This is my blog, i also post some stuff on another blog which is shared with two other guys, but this blog is all mine. And less people (the next song in win-amp has come on, it is "where angels play" by the stone roses) know this blog exists so i can be more honest without worrying about giving anything away to someone who knows me (in the real world).

So, I am 27, will be 28 in July.
I take drugs ( sometimes ).

I would never tell anyone that taking drugs is a good thing, if you can avoid it then life will probably be much easier (winamp is now playing- The Sweet Fantastic, by Ian brown).

I've had, Ketamine [ http://www.urban75.com/Drugs/drugketa.html ] (which i believe is horse tranquilizer). It was like a yellow powder , i think it costs about £.25 a gram.

Tastes a bit like instant mash ( to me).
It was a weird experience, i took it because someone had really done my head in by talking about things i didn't wanna hear (too long a story).

First i felt nothing for about 5 minutes, then i walked into another room. then it kicked in. it was like everything (winamp now playing trapped in a k hole by the chemical brothers, very apt, pure coincidence too) was like blocks.

It's not easy to explain, but I'll try. I was very aware if the visual dimensions of the room, everything that existed, was made from blocks. (winamp now playing the coral - wildfire) I don't think I can really explain me ketamine experience, but i can tell you the next day i felt like crap, and i think i could have done without that particular drug experience and have no plans to ever take ketamine (special k) again. Can't be bothered typing anymore, have been drinking and smoking (hash, blow, etc).

Took half an "e" and had a couple of bombs of MDMA powder ( http://www.whitehousedrugpolicy.gov/publications/factsht/mdma/index.html ) last night. wanna sleep..... BUT I WILL SAY ONE THING.... Drugs are bad, your better of without them.

They do not make you a better person. Not everyone that smokes weed (hash, blow etc) is chilled and cool. Drugs are different depending on the individual ( except for cocaine which makes everyone an arrogant wanker ...eventually). Don't do drugs, and if you do, make sure you are in good company... you should always be in good company but it is very important, that, if you are taking drugs to be with people you can trust and that will take care of you.