Softly failing away

Winter's coming, cold and quick
Makes me feel like hibernating
Freezing air and fog so thick
To rise at all is so frustrating

Fill my days with little or less
quite aware my life's a mess
but this chill is heavy and i can't see
The frozen fog has blinded me...

playing games forever...

Trying to play online backgammon, no luck
When it finally connects, it gets stuck
Freezes and doesn’t do anything for ages
But that’s no reason to loose the head
Just do something else instead.

But the inner child speaks out
“I wanna play games” he shouts
Well you can’t, says logic
“Fuck logic, I’m bored”
“I wanna play games” he roared

So the conflict between acceptance and desire lingers on
But it’s held me back for years now, much too long
I feel the disappointment felt, has made me strong
Now it’s time to buckle up and battle on

No moral to this story but a message to myself
All this childish lingering is so bad for my health
As a mind so stagnant as mine, needs stimulation
So here I go, to learn and know, the way out of this situation.