sadness lingers

Oh why oh why is my head so bare?
Moments of excitement and happiness so rare
Makes me wonder how I ever smiled at all
No sense of purpose I’ve never felt worse

Once again I’m not up nor am I down
No excuse no reason to falter or frown
I’m afraid for myself, if I can’t turn it round
This wave shall claim me and I’ll end up drown

I’m choking on nothing, which is me right now
I’ll have to do something, soon somehow
But I’ve got no ideas, in this head so bare
Moments of excitement and happiness so rare