A change is needed

Sick of feeling sorry for myself, this world has lots for me to see and do.

I am now 27 years old, I don’t know what I want from life.
My major stumbling block is relationships, I spend too much time wanting to be with someone. I don’t seem to have the ability to have a balanced outlook, I am lacking confidence in relation to trying new things. I have a massive fear of failure, I know that I cannot always get my way in life but get so into an idea that when reality dawns, I have been too busy fantasising about how good it will be and end up feeling lost. I have no idea whether I always think in this way and just get down about stuff or only get down because I think this way at times.

I think too much, about silly things and get wound up by nothing.
The whole thing about trivial shit is, its trivial, unimportant.

So anyway it’s 4.33am and I am totally motivated and ready to sort out my life, unfortunately I can’t do the things I need to do just now as it late (or early).
But it’s always late, I only ever feel composed for short spurts, but I am addressing these issues and that is a start.

I would love to be able to look at this one day and know that this was the point when I started feeling like living again.

We’ll see