Anger Switch

Somewhere in my head is an anger switch
Due to something unknown, some sort of glitch
It’s so well hidden, it sometimes isn’t there
But when it comes back my fuse starts to flare.

I strongly dislike these bouts of rage
Like rabid dogs they stalk me for days
They become me, and I intern them
A smile just an echo, a long lost dear friend.

Where light beams once lived
Gloom now presides
So much gloom it conquers
It infects my insides.

Chokes me like smoke made of dark sticky tar
Infects all my organs, opens all my scars
Leaves me laid bare, unable to cope
On the edge of despair grasping for a rope -

To pull my self up or at least die trying
Life without fight is just not worth living
But it’s all just a phase, just a few rainy days
Though it calls uninvited, I know it won’t stay.